Questions often contemplate my mind;
Rather than peace‚ why do I find
Myself wanting the very things that push you in the distance‚
God when my existence longs for you?
How can it be‚
I allow myself to do
What I know hurts you
And nails you right back to that cross?
When I love you so
Yet I know‚
To grow
I must deny myself
Why do I do everything my way?
Planning my life without your guidance
And leading myself down more difficult paths
When you have better things in mind?
Why do I obey your commands in part‚
Half-hearted and weak?
When your standing there eager to speak
Your words of life and strength to my heart
How can I go on each day
Mediocre and the same?
When you died to give me freedom and power
Not fear to step back and cower
So often I chose what I want over your best
Often failing the test you take of my character
And there you stand with so much for me
That is greater than anything I could have obtained on my own
I wonder why and there’s just no way I can deny
God I need you
Who am I without you?
I’m nothing
I need you everyday
There’s never a moment I can say
I can do this on my own,
Because I always fall right back to my knees
God you overshadow my weakness
And fill me with your love
Only you can transform this heart
And can make something wonderful out of my life.
February 28, 2008